[ They Believe In Me !! They Count On Me !! ]

Hello fellas .. hows everything ??

anyway im flyin from jeddah  to dubai finally in sunday 28feb i will stay there 9 hours =D .. actually it was a dream to vist dubai i want to see this city !! even if it was just a one hour !! umm it’s just a curiosity !! and i will stay in the air port hotel =_= .. im flyin on emirates Airway umm am afraid from this company but they said to its the best airlines in the world =/ and i will see that !! after the nine hours then we will b ready for u Canada =D the flight will takes 14:30 hours damn too long wallahi what shall i’ll do !! eh .

im going to Toronto ”Pearson int air-port” actually i was thinking before everything about this city !! i remembered that !! i never dreamed about visiting this city !! but god i love the life in the huge cities =D !! so u can find any damn thing !! that’s awesome

my english school ”ELS Language Centers” and im waiting for my new family address lol ! can u imagine that i will live with a Family i hope they will b a great ppl cuz am afraid also about this !!  and i will start the studying at 8/march !! eh

damn when i saw my friends and in these days im starting to say good-bye guyz !! i don’t know i feel like i want to cry !! dunno know WTH is going on with me !! i know it will b easy for them but shit why it’s nt easy with me ! 

and im stuck with my on-friends dunno but wallahi i do love them so damn much and i feel like i will b away from them just i wish they will never forget me =::(

my family this thing KILLS me slowly every min when i think about my mom eh u know men they cant cry !! and my lovely sister she count on me so damn much she think that i will do something !! and i cant forgot my uncle’s words !! shit thats too heavy on my shoulders !! and i will never let them down i will do my best inshallah ya rab

finally =D god i love sales and i love shopping so damn much lol i told my sis these words and she looked at me !! =| “whoowh dude i feel like u r my sister” lol !! aah my new “i pod touch 32gb” damn apple just fall in love with apple and my first plan new i will save sum money cuz I WANT A MACBOOK <3 ..

that’s it guys sorry lool i know its a damned long post..thank u for the reading and wish me luck =]

[ FATHER .. for rent ! ]

hello there , just wanna ask where can i find a good father for rent ! haha  .. cuz in these days i feel too bad ! i listened to song about the good fathers .. and they starting to say .. we are thankful and father you teach me how to choose wisely bla bla … and when we need you are the one here what else yeah .. you make us stable and you work hard to put the food on the table !!

is that a crap ! or i don’t how dose it work ! when you have a father !? as you know now i am preaparing to get hell away from this country .. and i have a friend he is a good guy yesterday he came to me ! and we start to talking about the damned new life in the other side from the earth .. and he told that ” am about to get married before everything ” i was like ! WTH .. dude ! are you sure ! .. how can you ! and THE MONEY ! he said ” Don’t worry ! my father he spport me ! “

actually wallah .. i am happy for him .. but i felt like ! shit where the hell are you father ! i don’t want the marriage but i need a new laptop hahaha =]

sometimes i feel like i am so lucky ! cuz there’s lots of bad fathers .. huh .. with fathers or not life goes on .. and damn u feelings !

[ The Life .. It's My Father c: ]

[ Sick From This Damned Brain.. ]

it have been long time from puttin my crap here ! didn’t write anything cuz i was too busy .. actually im still busy ! am preparing to go away maybe i can say runaway .. from this agony but i think i will put myself in another hard bad life .. its my expections but who knows ! maybe easy good life !! haha .. hate that kind of feeling that u called it ppl HOPE .. but wat shall i do !! still hoping for a cute life !

lets talk about my damned brain ! actually im wondering how can i do sumthin like that ! Graguated form university with great GPA ! and i hate math ! i hate reading ! i can’t remember anything  for exaple i can’t remember my moms’ phone number !! my brother phone num !! i can’t remember names !! and the main cause of problems with my exs girlfriend i can’t remember thier birthdays date !! haha .. damn wat a mind !

i don’t know ! but is it sumthn cool if u have a dad ! umm i know nothing about that feeling .. still thinkin .. how can i will be dad sum day ! .. and about the social relationships i wish sumday i will understand it .. to me its just a COMPLICATED .. and my opinoin its full of hypocrisy !

i guess im a freak guy he tryin to be a normal guy and he can’t !! from the begining till the end .. he will be alone inside that darky blacky box inside his chest and he’s still tellin himself .. KEEP TRYING douche bag !

haha i know its a crap and no one cares about it .. so if you read that plz don’t feel sorry .. im not lookin for ur sympathy ! just laugh about my brain lol … its just a words .. and as u know

[Words Mean Nothing ]

Chasin .. Is It A Dream Or A Nightmare ??

Hello Guys =] , how u doin’ ? inshallah everybody is OKAY .. Well 2day damn wat a day .. i went to Taif it’s a city i guess sumtimes i think it’s a zoo or sumthin like that .. they r Completely insane ! shit .. from a long time ago i felt like am a cute boy =$ , oki first i went to taif university cuz there’s an exam in biotechnology if  I passed i will be a teacher in the university simply i will b a mo3eed .. but it was a stupid test i don’t wanna to talk about it at all =_= cuz WTF am a damn Microbiologist why the put a  math Qs & arabic language Qs !! aaah bs .. a9lan .. i don’t want that job in that shitty city =_=.

“just wanna talk about sumthin .. maybe in 2005 .. ayam windowslive spaces’ .. i met two girls sam”roll lulu girl” & sara”safari girl” i think they don’t know but i was watchin them in sites =D”princess-mood & sara&salwa blog’s sam simply she’s creative,smart,fashionable and i think she can do the impossible if she want.. Sara she’s so strong,have a kind heart, full of energy,she can do the right every time and she’s so so so smart .. those girls really they mean a lot  to me .. i don’t know but i feel like i believe in them so damn much .. i feel like they will b sumthin huge in the near future i wish to them the best”

anyway im still waiting 4 the answer from MOHE, cuz really really i want that scholarship, Chosen 1) Canada. 2)U.S.A . 3)Ireland.

but am afraid =( it’s hard to leave my home & my friends “still losin them “but it worth, cuz here am a damn tired from everything it’s nt cuz that im out of work !! or am losin my friends but there’s many reasons ,it was a dream to leave the country, to see the world, to runnin form the past & live the new life ?? !!! then wat about the new country & the new life =( am i gonna like it or nt =(.. but with time i feel like i can’t .. Inshallah i’ll do it .. Umm am askin myself

[ Is It A Dream Or A Nightmare ? ]

Is It A Dark Secret ? .

 

Al slam 3alekom o Ra7mt allah O Brakath ,

hey all ? how u doin ? well it’s my first blog here, it have been a while 4 writing stuff like that but right now i have nothing to do =D , i got my bachlors’ degree & my certificate and i put it in my secret’s case like any damn paper lol, and i don’t have a work or any damn thing to do, today wat a day  feelin so damn sorry 4 myself i used to go to my school then the collage 4 like 17 years and today im sittin in my room watchin series & readin the newspaper lookin 4 jobs .. damn wat a life =| .. ah can u feel that .. im wonderin how can the earth dealin with that situation, if u ask me wat stiuation i’ll tell u dude ,for example in these days can u find the meanin of friendship ?? can u find the real meanin of family ?? lots of things ITS JST Disappeared.very very MAD WORLD .

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CpjKPy64NpM

i wish (wish guys but im nt lol ) one day i’ll be a serial killer lolz .. nt 4 fun i want to change the world i know it’s a damn stupid idea but how many ppl deserve a second chance ? NONE . but i already havin my code i will not kill innocent ppl ! it doesn’t work like that .. there is a strategy .. one day i’ll put my CODE here lolz but =( it’s 7ram i can’t do it =(

yea i know lol maybe u said damn wat a psycho person, but believe me

[ Every Person Has A Dark-side ]

anyway guys thanx if u read that lol .. see you soon & another secret

be safe BBYE ~